I’ve been staring at the ceiling for a while now, pondering upon the fact that life has turned into this horrible nightmare for me and I am unable to get away from this continuous torture. There have been some changes recently in the way I think about some people. People bore me now. I look at them and all I can see ia fake smiles. They will never be truly happy for you. There will always be some sort of compitition. They will always want to stay ahead of you. They want to be happier, more successful and more beautiful than you. I don’t know why the world is turning into a greedy monster. I don’t know what to do, how to react to such people? They feel happy when I cry. They think I’m vulnerable and they can play with my feelings. It’s like a cat getting pleasure from playing with a mouse before eating it. People are so caught up in their own lives, they’ve literally stopped caring about others. I don’t want to show them that I need care and affection because they will make fun of me, they will tease me and call me weak and I can’t give them that power over me. That’s why I decided to turn hard, to turn into a rock. They can’t break me this way. I want them to know that I’m not a fragile piece of glass. I’m a diamond you can never break.